I’ve never known fear like being wheeled down for my double mastectomy.
I knew I needed to get the cancer out of my body, but the thought of what was about to happen – having both of my breasts removed – was terrifying.
I’d never been into hospital for anything like that before – I was a healthy 23-year-old.
Until I wasn’t.
I was diagnosed with breast cancer months before. I remember feeling a lump just below the surface of my left breast while I was in the shower. I was concerned, but never thought it was going to be anything bad.
Even up to the moment when the doctors uttered the words ‘cancer’, I didn’t believe it. I was too young. I’d never heard of breast cancer in a woman of my age.
I don’t remember much about my reaction after being diagnosed. Those hours sat with the consultant and breast care nurses are a blur, but …